On not leaving the house

Especially with having thousands of dollars of new medical bills, I feel like I have to spend every waking moment looking for ways to make money. I feel guilty if I even leave for 30 minutes to go to the store or do anything that’s not absolutely necessary.

I’m not sure how much of it is being practical and how much of it is self-punishment. I feel like if I have trouble even paying all my bills, I don’t deserve to do anything that might be considered fun.

I’ve been too stressed out about money to post much lately.

I’ve been too stressed out about money to post much lately. After the kidney surgery, I’ve gotten a bunch of bills I have no idea how I am going to pay and this has caused me to have trouble sleeping very well. I haven’t been drinking at all because I can’t afford it. I also haven’t bought much of anything from Ebay or Amazon, so that’s good, I guess. Things have been pretty unremarkable lately, other than that.