I’ve been seeing this therapist for over a year now. If indeed there is anything I would benefit from discussing with him, I have trouble verbalizing those things. I have trouble talking about myself. The avoidance of talking about myself is more pleasant than any potential perceived benefits that may come from talking about myself. So I sometimes wonder if I should just stop seeing him and save the ~$100 or so in copays I pay him a month. On the other hand, I feel like one day I may have a breakthrough and be able to talk about myself in a serious way. I also rely on him somewhat to reassure me that I can more or less “pass” as a human.
[Please, no “you can talk to me”s in response to this. No, I can’t. That was my entire point.]